5.31.19 Sharing Smiles

Aimee and Elliot sharing a hug and a smile. 




We made it through sickness and no nurses. We finally had a new nurse start last week. She seems to be a good fit and is very attentive to Aimee. Ironically, we were approved to have our nursing hours increased from 56 to 70 per week right during this time. This nurse is able to cover 3 straight days, so we do have help, but it is a long stretch without. Especially difficult to make it through appointment days without help. To be honest, I feel like a wrung out rag after yesterday’s run on our own. The kids were such good listeners though that I took them out for doughnuts as a reward afterwards. 




We are praying for another nurse to cover the remaining hours. Praying that they would be available in time for us to get a good schedule and routine before baby girl arrives. So far the nursing company does not seem very motivated to fill our hours. :( 

Anyways, Aimee had another sleep study done. Ed ended up taking a day off of work so that he could stay down at the hospital with her. It was a tough one, not because of the study, but because she had multiple post-cecostomy leaks. What a mess and in a place that has no accommodations. We were praying that everything stayed the same. We did not want any pressure changes and I was really worried about losing our oxygen if she happened to not need it that one night. We would be in the hospital so much without it. Results were supposed to take a good month, but I’ll come back to those. 

We met last week with the occupational therapist to work towards getting Aimee a car seat. $2300?! Yep. 😱 We have had some car trouble with the van come up and have had to cancel appointments. The van also does not run well in extreme weather and it makes me really nervous to not be able to get Aimee out of our place. We want the car seat as a back up option. As an added bonus, once the baby arrives, our whole family would be able to fit in the suburban we picked up. No idea how we will get Aimee in and out of it (especially how to get her wheelchair in and out), but just something else to figure out along the way! 

We also met with Aimee’s GI nutritionist last week. Aimee has been dropping weight this past 6 months. She is down to a BMI of about 12, less than the 1 percentile for her age. She is right about 5 feet tall (approximately), but only 59 lbs. Yes, we don’t expect her to typical, but getting thinner isn’t helpful, especially when she just keeps getting taller. Anyways, we are going to very slowly go up on calories. It isn’t as easy to do now that she is fed intestinally. There is a possibility that with her sicknesses this winter/spring that she has not been absorbing her nutrition as well as she would typically as well. 

Wednesday we had appointments with her Foot Orthopedic doctor and the Orthotics department. I am pretty bummed because they want to increase her time in the AFO foot braces from 10 hours per day to 22 hours. It is such a long time to be in braces, particularly during the summer. We had new molds taken while we were there to get updated braces with some different toe straps. She is having more significant toe contractures and there is a possibility that tendon releases will need to be done in the future. 

Yesterday, Aimee had an appointment with her Respiratory Pulmonologist. After her illnesses, he said she is sounding clear, but as per her usual, she is breathing very shallow. So shallow it is hard to tell if she actually does have clear lungs. 

He was able to go over the results from her sleep study with us as well. Apparently they were able to collect a ton of data from this study, more than they have ever been able to collect for her. They worked hard to go through the data so that this Pulmonologist could review prior to our meeting with him. During the study, they were able to make a lot of tweaks to the settings during that sleep and want to make a lot of changes to her bipap. Her main respiratory issue is carbon dioxide retention. Due to her shallow breathing, all day long it is retained, but during sleep it is even worse. She has significant amounts of obstuctive and central apneas still as well. So, they want to increase her pressure for breathing in, increase her breathes per minute to 24, and adjust the sensitivity of the machine. They are hopeful that these changes will decrease her carbon dioxide levels overall. They did a blood check of her levels yesterday and will repeat it in a month or two to see if these changes have helped. I’m nervous, because everytime she has had her pressure increased at all, she has ended up with terrible/scary desatting. 

In good news, the Pulmonologist really took more ownership of Aimee’s care than he has before. He also told me that if insurance tried to take our oxygen that he would fight them tooth and nail. I’m so glad that I voiced my fears to him in that area. 

We are so grateful for a beautiful, healthy girl as Spring weather is here on our little farm. We are expecting a new calf in the coming weeks and looking forward to the abundance that comes with that birth. :)




















5.8.19 Catch Up

Hello friends! We are still here, but well overdue for a post about Aimee. I keep waiting to come up above the surface for a breath before posting, but that moment seems to be elusive and in demand. So, here we are in the midst of our chaos. There is still peace here. There is much beauty. Yet, no denial, this road is not easy or even clear at times. Difficult decisions are being made and overwhelming crises must be diffused. 

Aimee has continued to make her usual rounds through the specialists. She has had more growth rod expansions and more discussion about the next steps for her spine. There is a possibility of another surgery being needed for a spine fusion in 2020. She had her first go at botox in her biceps recently. Her elbows have become more and more contracted. There is also spasticity there and we are hoping that the botox will weaken the muscles just enough to allow her to extend her arms for using communication devices. We are in a long struggle to get those devices (iPad, switches, and apps) covered through the DDA funds that she has available. We are hopeful that she will have success with these when they do finally arrive as it seems that she is interested in communicating, during her good days at least. 

This has been a tough Spring of respiratory sicknesses. With the help of a very capaple nurse, we have managed to keep Aimee home so far. There would have been no way through the last one that we could have managed on our own. Unfortunately, we are in the midst of big changes in our nursing care and Aimee is sick again! At this point, we will not have any nursing for the next couple of weeks and then we will transition to completely new nurses. Praying that the right nurses for our situation become available. 



Our family has spent the past 11 months building a new home on our property. Ed has been marvelous. He designed and drew up plans for a practical, economical house that he has then built himself. It has been an incredible journey that we are still in the thick of traveling, but we are beginning to see a glimpse of land on the horizon ahead of us. It is such an amazing project, just the right place for our family grow. I love it and honestly have loved the process. Each nook that is built and wire that is strung is an exciting possibility for the future. How sweet the journey (says the one who mostly just takes pictures and acts as cheerleader ;) ). We are really looking forward to having a thought-out bedroom for Aimee with a bathroom setup to care for her well. We plan to move into our new home in the late summer or early fall. 






























In other news, we are building a new family member too. ;) Baby #5 is anticipated at the end of August. The boys have prayed and prayed for a little sister.






Aside from the recent illnesses, Aimee has been able to go on more adventures lately. With the help of a wonderful nurse, I took the kids on an aquarium trip. As a family we got to go see an amazing production of Mary Poppins, which Aimee delighted in for the full 3 hours! She particularly enjoyed the stageful of chimney sweeps tap dancing.








11.3.18 Test Results

Following Aimee’s Pulmonary Sleep Clinic visit earlier this week, we had labs done to re-check Carbon Dioxide levels and iron levels. Iron supplements have kicked in and her stored iron is now back to a healthy level. Very unfortunately her carbon dioxide came back significantly higher... the highest it has ever been despite the increase to the backup rate on her bipap machine in September. This is really concerning to me and may be the cause of her general low energy levels. I have not yet been able to discuss the results with her Pulmonologist. 

We did get EEG results and there were no seizures during the 2 hour test. Thankful to rule that out as the cause of her fatigue. 

10.17.18 One Year Later

Today marks one year since Aimee’s first spine surgery. A year of recovery and change for all of us. Honestly, I thought by now we would be confident that agreeing to the surgery was the right choice. There have been positives certainly and she has healed fully. We are actually going in on Monday for her 3rd rod expansion. I am hopeful that year 2 will bring more enjoyment and life back to Aimee. 



So, this past few weeks. We have had issues with Aimee’s wheelchair van, which have now thankfully been fixed. The pivotol element, the ramp, was not functioning. Thank you so much to a couple dear people who sent Aimee funds this past month that covered a good portion of this cost. It is now working more smoothly than it ever has for us! 

Aimee had a dentist appt a couple weeks ago at UW. Thankfully there is a new dentist there that seems a lot less concerned with surgically removing teeth. Due to medication, Aimee’s gums have grown over baby teeth. There is still the possibility that she will have to have them messed with in the future, but thankful to put that aside in my mind. 

We met with Otolaryngology a couple weeks ago to get medical clearance for Aimee’s new hearing aids. A funny insurance hoop that must be jumped. It did give us our first chance to utilize the new North Clinic of Seattle Children’s that was built in Everett. It is incredibly close, less than a 30 minute drive. And there ends the positives. I have been fairly disappointed so far to discover that it was not built with disabled children in mind at all. It seems to have been designed for looks over function, as it is very challenging to get the wheelchair into the rooms, through the front door, and there is no changing space anywhere for larger kids/young adults. A big disappointment. 



To swing back to positive, last week we had a 2 hour communication evaluation done by the speech language pathologist at children’s. It was amazing! She is going to help us get Aimee beyond just pushing communication buttons for cause and effect games. She even had us play some interactive games with Aimee in the clinic, similar to Simon Says. It was wonderful, beautiful, and gave me hope. From here we are going to attempt to have DDA funds cover a couple communcation devices. 

We are also hoping to get Aimee an iPad again. The SLP recommended that we get one to use with the communication devices. Plus, Aimee did so well with it in the past. When hers died, we got a kindle for her instead since it was so much cheaper, but it doesn’t have hardly any apps available for her and is much less sensitive to her touch. It also is a dimmer screen and hard for her to see. I am looking around at maybe a refurbished iPad with a larger screen for Christmas. 

Earlier this week, Aimee had a prolonged EEG done. We are just double checking to ensure there are no underlying seizures causing Aimee’s major lack of energy lately. It will be about 5 weeks until we have full results.

In general news, Aimee has been sick this past week or so. She is holding steady, though having some pretty intense choking episodes. She has also begun desatting during the nights again this past month, which had been fairly resolved for the past 6 months previous. 

More updates to come as we navigate our way forward with/without school and communication. Praying that we can see our next steps clearly and can help Aimee wake up to the world around her again. 

9.25.18 The Way Forward

Dear friends, I apologize for my lack of communication over this past few months. It has been difficult to process what the way forward is for Aimee now. She has had a busy summer of clinic visits and exams. 

She had a sedated hearing exam, which has resulted in a set of new hearing aids being ordered. I am excited about these, as they will be blue tooth enabled. 

She has had numerous blood tests, some to show that her carbon dioxide levels have increased much too high. We are attempting some changes in the amount of breaths that her bipap makes her take per minute during sleep, an increase from 18 to 22 breathes. The fact is that all day long she breathes too shallow and does not expel enough carbon dioxide, but we hope to have enough of an improvement during sleep to improve her blood levels to a safe amount. If this is successful, we hope that we can leave the pressure settings alone. 

She has continued to have low iron levels. She has been receiving supplementation for a couple months in the hopes that her energy levels would increase. No improvement noted. 

She has started a medication to allow her stomach to relax and expand with the goal of being able to clamp the farrell bag (stomach drain). So far she is tolerating it being clamped some days for an hour, which is progress. 

She has had multiple rod expansions for her spine, which have gone very well. 

She has started school again, but we are strongly considering pulling her out. She just does not have the energy to stay awake or alert in class. She no longer seems to enjoy being there, so it is not worth the risk of illness and the great amount of paperwork, meetings, ect that it takes to keep her in school. At this point, I’m not sure if I will just include her in our own homeschool activities or if I will pursue home based public school. 

We met yesterday with her neurologist. There is concern that her lack of alertness is due to underlying seizure activity. We had attempted a dose increase earlier in the summer, but it did not affect energy, though we noticed less events. We agreed to have a short EEG performed in a couple weeks to see if we are missing seizures.

Overall, Aimee does have alert, engaged times, but she has them much less often. Generally she is either sleeping or disinterestedly staring. I have so many questions and am so concerned about her lack of participation in life now. Please pray that Ed and I would be given wisdom. I feel that Aimee is hiding away, but wether it is due to pain, seizures, energy levels, fear, coping... Jesus, help us to love Aimee well. 


-We got to see our favorite NP while inpatient earlier this month-


-Aimee’s first day of 4th grade-








9.4.18 Hospital

Currently inpatient with Aimee. We pulled an all-nighter in the ER and were admitted around 5am. 😴 Aimee is well, but her medications that we gave through her j-tube (intestines), drained right back out of her g-tube (stomach) into her farrell bag last night. Not supposed to happen and not an easy fix. We called the GI doctor on-call and were sent to the hospital. Hoping that we will be able to get her tube replaced in the Interventional Radiology today. Finally got her an IV, some meds, and some fluids around 4am. Finally got her respiratory equipment set-up for her to sleep around 6am. They are watching to make sure she has no problems (seizures, ect) come up from the lack of meds and fluids. 😴